hmm..today is tuesday..doesn't feel like starting work actually..feel so tired of working..everything seem to sux..the work..the people..the place..the journey..the food..the water..the surrounding..even the music seem to sux..juz wanna stay on my bed..to rot..haiz..

zi mei starting work today at the salon..feel glad for her..coz it something she liek to do..hmm..start to wonder when will i find something i love to do..so kind of envy for pple who have found their work interest..and from wda u can see..office job is denfinity not my cup of tea..haiz..since the day i once starting on office job..i hate it..it too fake..pple put on mask to entertain another person..n a knife when pple not looking..when the person is bad u say him..when he good u still say him..credit goes to u and blame goes to others..and the blame got push and push and push to mi...full stop..haiz..

hmm..okok..travel issue is another..i have to change bus and train and bus again..a whole 1 hr plus trip..and yet i can still be late..haiz..

hmm..feel so lousy now..haiz..close to depression le..haha..nothing seem to work out well for mi..make up my mind to quit on 13 jan..den by the end of jan i can quit le..irene seem quite happy ya..haha..ask mi y not earlier..hmm..can't stand to see mi ah?haha..nvm..coz i keep asking her wad to do den she dun explain properly so have to ask again..tt y she can't stand mi..too bad sia..wahaha..den i can have a good new yr..haha..shd have agree to go with my mum to thailand..haiz..din mention to js about mi quitting..hm..no intention of telling him either..he sure wun let mi..so use my best trick..do first den say..wahaha..

haiz..i make mistake again..haiz..lost the phone no of one of the patient..die le la..any pple out there can yang mi? told hock chai about mi wanting to quit..ask him hire mi..he say cannot..yang bu qi..will go bankupt..humph..mi so li hai meh?

told hui ying now..she say give her la..no way..wahah..coz i wanna her to look for job with mi..hhaa..hmm...but haven decided wad job la..haha..wanna try cafe..haha..quite fun ya..hmm...i'm crazy le

what i did for x'mas..i stay at home with js..we watch tv and sleep..haha..sunday also the same..zi mei quarrel with ah long again..hai mi n ah hao have to search for them..both of us slp at 5am the next morning..haha..we stay up to talk lor..about alot of thingy..

i'm eating famous amos cookies now..so nice..haha..my favourite cookie!!!!think i will grow fat today coz i keep eating during the weekend..haha...so piggy..haha...

arghhhhhhhhhh..so boring!!!sososososossosoososososoososso boring!!!..i juz hinted js that i wanna quit..kana scolded by him..knew i cant offically tell him..haha..nvm...btw..the part where i scalded my hand are all red and itchy now..haiz..so itchy...and it very big piece lor..haha..

my eye very tired now..and heavy...miss my bed...suddenly..i feel tt i have communication problem with pple..i can tok crap but when serious stuff come..i dunno wad to say..haiz..this is wad the ' fortune teller"say too..haha..one example is..i duno howe to communicate with irene..haiz..think my impression of her is becoming from bad to worst..haha..sorry bear...i either like it or hate it...haha...wonder last time how i manage to communicate with her...hmm..funny ya?

ok..think i will go fro my lunch now..though i'm not hungry...tok later..